pretty as a car crash.
Mmm, I've come to the conclusion that I hate flirtacious people. And I know a couple people I know read this... and I know what you're thinking!! But I stopped my shit... because that's how you hurt people.... or just annoy them because you're known as that person that "flirts with everyone." I only accept flirting if you like someone. I also don't like 15 year old girls...and people that talk about me for no reason. I'm not that much of a horrible person.
On another note... I'm not sure how New Years is going to pan out for me. I've been invited to a few parties. I'm not really into the whole drinking thing anymore, even though it's not going to be a HUGE part of a couple of the parties. I'm decided if I'm going to party hop or stick to one. Some friends of mine have been complaining that they haven't seen me at all for the past 2 weeks or so, haha. My bad.
Just lately people have been making plans with me in advance, so it's like I'm booked... or however you want to put it. Ricky REALLY wants me to stop by his house, which I probably may stop in and say hello for about 5 minutes and leave. There's a 98% chance of me seeing Kristen there. Kristen would be Ricky's ex-girlfriend. Now I don't have any feelings for Ricky what-so-ever, but she hurt him badly (he's one of my best friends since age 2, even if I only knew him for a couple months, I would still be there for him; I don't like my friends getting hurt). They had a great relationship until she decided she had feelings for one of Ricky's friends, and broke up with him. She seems to be around him a lot, or calling him if we're out to dinner or even if he's at my house for 10 minutes. It's the fact that he's always all, "WHAT THE FUCK" every time she calls, but then she always seems to be around? And every time before she shows up, it seems like he's loathing it. Once she's there, he's all huggy with her. He's just getting more sad all the time because of it. I wish he would just cut her the fuck off and date Ash. Ash has liked him for the longest time; Ricky is about her too (or so it appears). She's afraid to get too close with him because he's still all about Kristen (who seems she needs to have Rick wrapped around her finger; which she does). It's so confusing. It's ashame because this situation is happening with 2 other good friends of mine. I don't like my friends getting hurt.
I go off subject so easily. Hah.
Mehh, I talked to Dustin on-line today for about 15 minutes. He still doesn't seem to happy about me having Evan chase him away last night. That was hell, but I managed to not let it get to me too much. I was just pissed that I was outside of Tom's, arguing on the phone with him for 45 minutes. It was beat. He was basically asking Erin where I was, shit like that. Gary tried to handle it, but Dustin hates Gary; I'm suprised a fight didn't break from that. Anywho, I tried to discuss with him why it was good for us to breakup. It was a number of reasons.
1. He dropped the "I love you" thing wayy to quickly for me. It bothered me for like a month after the 1st time. I didn't know how he could feel that way so quickly. In my opinion, you're still getting to know how a person is in the relationship. You don't even fully know them yet. It takes a lot of time to learn what that person is, their flaws, their everything. It's also like there's nothing to look forward to after that...well unless squeaky squeaky... haha. Seriously, there's a time period where that love has to build up, and when it's said; it's one of the most amazing feelings in the world when you know both of you have that feeling. I wanted him to seriously ask himself if he felt that way about me. He told me he did. ::shrug::
2. We had opposing work schedules. Whenever he wasn't working, I was... vice versa. I never really got to see him. Even by the time I did by the end of the day, I or he was really tired and just felt like sleeping.
3. BABY MOMMA DRAMA. Everyone knows about Alli. Well, Alli's mother is a fucking psycho. She harrassed him about me, harrassed me about EVERYTHING. She would tell me the craziest shit like, "Oh, you better never hurt my baby..." Ew. I felt like I was talking to Claire more than Dustin.
4. I never talked about him/didn't get upset when I wasn't with him. Erin pointed this one out to me that I never talked about him when I wasn't with him.... practically never... unless I had an argument with him. Laura asked on Christmas if him and I were still dating... I said... "Hah, yeahh." It was really weird.
5. Him thinking I was dating someone else. That was really fucking annoying. End of story.
6. Him flipping out at other people who said I was pretty or whatever. He would literally track down every mother fucker on Myspace that complimented me or whatever. Most of them being people I hang out with and talk to on a regular basis. He threatened the shit out of Nelson, who's liked me since middle school... and Ricky... who's liked me since diapers. I didn't even know why he got so mad over those things. I'm not that attractive or nice to look at. I personally think I'm annoying. ::shrug::
Those were just the main points. BLARRGGH. I'm just angry he took the breakup so badly. Lets move on.
Tonight was okay. Kinda early night. I had fun for the most part though. ;]
Phew, it's time for bed. <3
On another note... I'm not sure how New Years is going to pan out for me. I've been invited to a few parties. I'm not really into the whole drinking thing anymore, even though it's not going to be a HUGE part of a couple of the parties. I'm decided if I'm going to party hop or stick to one. Some friends of mine have been complaining that they haven't seen me at all for the past 2 weeks or so, haha. My bad.
Just lately people have been making plans with me in advance, so it's like I'm booked... or however you want to put it. Ricky REALLY wants me to stop by his house, which I probably may stop in and say hello for about 5 minutes and leave. There's a 98% chance of me seeing Kristen there. Kristen would be Ricky's ex-girlfriend. Now I don't have any feelings for Ricky what-so-ever, but she hurt him badly (he's one of my best friends since age 2, even if I only knew him for a couple months, I would still be there for him; I don't like my friends getting hurt). They had a great relationship until she decided she had feelings for one of Ricky's friends, and broke up with him. She seems to be around him a lot, or calling him if we're out to dinner or even if he's at my house for 10 minutes. It's the fact that he's always all, "WHAT THE FUCK" every time she calls, but then she always seems to be around? And every time before she shows up, it seems like he's loathing it. Once she's there, he's all huggy with her. He's just getting more sad all the time because of it. I wish he would just cut her the fuck off and date Ash. Ash has liked him for the longest time; Ricky is about her too (or so it appears). She's afraid to get too close with him because he's still all about Kristen (who seems she needs to have Rick wrapped around her finger; which she does). It's so confusing. It's ashame because this situation is happening with 2 other good friends of mine. I don't like my friends getting hurt.
I go off subject so easily. Hah.
Mehh, I talked to Dustin on-line today for about 15 minutes. He still doesn't seem to happy about me having Evan chase him away last night. That was hell, but I managed to not let it get to me too much. I was just pissed that I was outside of Tom's, arguing on the phone with him for 45 minutes. It was beat. He was basically asking Erin where I was, shit like that. Gary tried to handle it, but Dustin hates Gary; I'm suprised a fight didn't break from that. Anywho, I tried to discuss with him why it was good for us to breakup. It was a number of reasons.
1. He dropped the "I love you" thing wayy to quickly for me. It bothered me for like a month after the 1st time. I didn't know how he could feel that way so quickly. In my opinion, you're still getting to know how a person is in the relationship. You don't even fully know them yet. It takes a lot of time to learn what that person is, their flaws, their everything. It's also like there's nothing to look forward to after that...well unless squeaky squeaky... haha. Seriously, there's a time period where that love has to build up, and when it's said; it's one of the most amazing feelings in the world when you know both of you have that feeling. I wanted him to seriously ask himself if he felt that way about me. He told me he did. ::shrug::
2. We had opposing work schedules. Whenever he wasn't working, I was... vice versa. I never really got to see him. Even by the time I did by the end of the day, I or he was really tired and just felt like sleeping.
3. BABY MOMMA DRAMA. Everyone knows about Alli. Well, Alli's mother is a fucking psycho. She harrassed him about me, harrassed me about EVERYTHING. She would tell me the craziest shit like, "Oh, you better never hurt my baby..." Ew. I felt like I was talking to Claire more than Dustin.
4. I never talked about him/didn't get upset when I wasn't with him. Erin pointed this one out to me that I never talked about him when I wasn't with him.... practically never... unless I had an argument with him. Laura asked on Christmas if him and I were still dating... I said... "Hah, yeahh." It was really weird.
5. Him thinking I was dating someone else. That was really fucking annoying. End of story.
6. Him flipping out at other people who said I was pretty or whatever. He would literally track down every mother fucker on Myspace that complimented me or whatever. Most of them being people I hang out with and talk to on a regular basis. He threatened the shit out of Nelson, who's liked me since middle school... and Ricky... who's liked me since diapers. I didn't even know why he got so mad over those things. I'm not that attractive or nice to look at. I personally think I'm annoying. ::shrug::
Those were just the main points. BLARRGGH. I'm just angry he took the breakup so badly. Lets move on.
Tonight was okay. Kinda early night. I had fun for the most part though. ;]
Phew, it's time for bed. <3
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