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Right now is the hardest

I've cried in a long time.

I'm just not happy anymore. I can't fucking stand the skin I'm in or the life that surrounds me. I can't stand how I don't have any real solid friends. I can't stand that I like the person that I like. I can't stand that I'm so fucking stupid with certain things. I can't stand the way I look. I can't stand when people talk about me. I can't stand how I don't really have family. I can't stand the fact that I'm waiting for my grandfather to die. I can't stand my job. I can't stand any of this bullshit... anymore. I'm fed up. I can't fucking take it.